She passed away just 18 months later. And in a way, I saw a part of myself in her. My dad leaned over and whispered, 'How could someone so young with so much talent be suffering so much?' He was right about her suffering. And despite her bounciness and radiance, I saw a troubled look in her eyes. Little did I know, she was struggling with an eating disorder, much like I had.
It was hard to imagine this was the same girl from the papers, the one the media loved to ridicule. Even in her fragile state, she lit up the room. I assumed that the world of music and celebrity were taking a toll, and yet she looked vibrant and jokey. She was on the skinny side, a wisp, and a shrimp of a girl at 5’2”. She walked in wearing one of her flamboyant dresses, tied with a bright bow and her signature beehive hairdo. So I’d spend hours there, waiting for scans and MRIs and hanging around in coffee shops nearby. It was late 2009, and I was there supporting my father who was being treated for terminal cancer. Could it be that her downfall was as much due to her dabbling with divination as drugs?Ĭhas Newkey-Burden is the author of 'Amy Winehouse: The Biography 1983-2011', John Blake Publishing, £7.I was lucky enough to see Amy Winehouse in person many times - not in concert, or at some club, but at the London Clinic where she was being treated for health and addiction problems. Fielder-Civil is not that sinister or capable, Amy was never that malleable. The narrative that painted her as a helpless naïf, led astray by a manipulative Blake Fielder-Civil, was always unfair on both of them. Friends and colleagues confirm that death became a subject of increased conversational interest to Amy. When television presenter Simon Amstell asked her what had happened to the more wholesome Amy of the Frank era, she replied: "She's dead". The video for her single Back To Black featured her at a funeral. Meanwhile, she became obsessed with her own mortality. In the titular Back To Black, Amy sang about her "odds being stacked" and in Love Is A Losing Game she lamented receiving a "losing hand". Given the reckless, fatalistic way Amy began to behave in the aftermath of Cynthia's death, the question arises: had something she had read in the cards disturbed her? There are hints in the grave mood and lyrics of her second album to suggest that she believed she was doomed. Amy inherited her grandmother's belief in the power of Tarot: she was often seen with a pack of Tarot cards in her hand and when asked if she believed her grandmother could read the future, Amy nodded solemnly and said "Cynthia knew." There was a less conventional dimension to the spell her grandmother cast on Amy: Cynthia was a keen Tarot card reader. They were like two peas in a pod: no wonder Amy was spellbound by her grandmother and so devastated by her death. It was Cynthia as much as anyone who encouraged Amy to become a singer. That relationship ended due to an unbridgeable obstacle: Winehouse would not sleep with Scott until they married, whereas he would not marry her until they had slept together.Ĭynthia's influence on her granddaughter was forceful: so much so that Amy got her grandmother's name tattooed on her right arm. However, her father Mitch has always said that the downturn in his daughter's life began after his mother Cynthia died in 2006.Ĭynthia Winehouse was a singer herself who once dated jazz legend Ronnie Scott. Many assumed that the cause of this change was her relationship with the notorious Blake Fielder-Civil, which began around this time. Everyone wondered what had happened to her. She began to cancel concerts or appear on stage late and recklessly intoxicated. It was a shocking and striking change. Episodes of drug overdoses, self-harming, public scraps and tears became commonplace. She stopped looking after herself, and turned from a fresh-faced, curvy young lady into an increasingly tormented figure. However, a clue to the morbid and fatalistic mood of the last five years of Amy's life could lie in her intense relationship with her paternal grandmother, Cynthia, and their shared interest in an element of the occult.Īs is well known, Amy went off the rails around 2006. Bennett, who recorded a duet with Amy earlier this year, said: "She knew she was in a lot of trouble, that she wasn't gonna live."īennett scarcely elaborated, so his statement raised more questions than it answered about the circumstances of her death. LEGENDARY jazz singer Tony Bennett has revealed that Amy Winehouse was aware that she was going to die young.
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